I have been finding a great time to blog because since 11th December, I officially celebrate the holiday at my grandma's house which is out of my current town.

This is the right time.

Hey. Finally I can go to this city by myself. My Dad is so damn worried all the time. Oh, please. I'm fifteen. Well, okay, legally I won't be able to do everything by myself. My Mom, Dad, and brother will go on this Saturday. uh, my precious time.......

This is my 3rd day here and I'm pretty excited! Have been playing with the dogs. My body is full of dog's saliva and the scratches are on my body. I don't know what my grandma gave to the scratches but it works. hmmm..

Yesterday, I watched Narnia 3D with one of my cousins. IT IS SERIOUSLY COOL!

AND YES! THE FUNNEST PART IS: I got Jeffery Deaver - The Vanished Man. OH MAN, you have to read this.

note: This is not mine. I took it from Google. :)

I got the original copy of The Camp Rock 2 too, with the lowest price ever! Oh, how I love this city.

As what I've said on several posts before, I have been planning to do some exercises. Just now, we rode bicycle along the road and played badminton. I feel fresh. :)

Going to upload the pics later.

Can't wait for Christmas still.

What's next? ;)

Today is the day we have been waiting for.

The day we smile and scream happily.

The day we are free from everything that binds us.

The day we can enjoy our bed comfortably.

The day we can sleep, eat, play and watch peacefully.

The day we don't have to study for tests.

WE ARE OFFICIALLY FREE FROM TESTS!!

Oh, I can't wait until 11th December because I'm going to enjoy my holiday at my grandma's house. I'm free I'm free I'm free! I'm free like a bird! I'm free!

My cousin's birthday is today and I still haven't bought any presents to give. :">

Then, I'm going to enjoy my precious times.

Smell ya later. :)

Hey! It's been so long since I updated the blog. Have been busy with semestral tests, and I'm pretty excited about this semestral tests because we are getting closer to holiday. Still get three more tests to face.

I have been planning to go to Jakarta (again) on 12th December, but we (read: Dad) are afraid that students are going to have some celebrations (and we are being pushed to come).

BAH!

My cousin's birthday is just 3 days away and I still don't know what to give.

I have got a list of things I want for Christmas:

1. Bags and shoes.

2. Xperia X8 or Xperia X10 mini.

3. New battery laptop.
4. Novels and comics.

5. A peaceful (high school) life.

Then, I have got a list of things I want to do on Christmas holiday:

1. Learn how to ride a car.

2. Go swimming or do some sports.

3. Visit my grandpa's graveyard.

4. Sleep as long as I could.

5. Go to Bogor Botanical Garden and go jogging.

It seems that I got this money-spending syndrome. Yes, since I have been saving my money from the 1st month of this year, I should have spent them all. ;)

Catch ya later!

I slept for more than 13 hours. that's a new big record.

we stayed at Cindy's house for a night on Friday. ;)

that was so much fun, thanks to all.

we had Handy drive the car then we were surprised when he was about to hit a motorcycle. we shouted and we turned the radio out loud, screamed, and danced.

then, we knew that Jason was actually in love with Ernita from Blackberry Messenger. seriously, we mocked him a lot.

sometimes, all we need is just go out and try to do something new, beyond the ordinary things. sometimes, all we need is just go insane for an hour so we could shout out loud and express ourselves in different ways. ;)

we had dinner at Lamongan, then didn't sleep for a night. actually, David and I were the ones who didn't sleep, the others? ha, don't ask. they slept soundly. we watched movies, took pictures, and played around. we made a short film too. we made it for projects. that was hilarious. Cindy and I should have made a duet album, we matched in many ways. HAHAHA.

these photos were originally taken by: David Shi

about the video, we mixed many songs up. it was weird, but we kept on going.

next week is going to be damn tiring, we got more than 5 tests because we were chased by the time.

in two weeks, we are going to have semestral tests.

somehow, I'm happy because we are going closer to Christmas and holiday!

friends, you take it all. :P

yesterday, my friends and I went to Eveline's birthday party, so we ate and celebrated it at Sari Bento, after we have done our Physics practice at school. we have planned something evil to Eveline on that time. >:)

then, we went to Randy's house but before that, we picked Eveline and some friends up. we are going to do some group projects from school though. ;)

then, after doing those projects, we played around Randy's house with the motorcycles the boys brought. that was so much fun, the boys tried to do some attractions by them and I was a little bit shocked and surprised. -_______- Stella tried to learn how to ride it and she could do it in less than 10 minutes. yeay! we did it!

we met Lupita and Tifanny too, then they joined us to play with the motorcycles. ;)

then, the evil plan came up. Randy, Handy and I picked Eveline, Cindy, and Chelsy up. we brought them to Stella's house. while David, Stella, William, Rio, etc. have been firstly at Stella's house. they prepared the flour and hebi which were going to be thrown on Eveline.

yeay! the time came. we threw everything (flour and hebi) to Eveline. she was surprised and ran away as fast as she could (but we were faster than her), but we caught her. ;)

Eveline and Cindy (who was surprisingly thrown by the flour too) bathed afterwards.

then, Eveline, Cindy, Chelsy and I accompanied Randy to look for some laptops.

the busiest and craziest Saturday ever! (so far)

these photos were originally taken by Stella Cereva.

hey there.

today is the 1st day in November and I'm pretty excited about it, yes, we're going closer to Christmas, which means we're getting closer to holidays! yeeaaayyy!

this month is going to be pretty much cool because some of my friends and my little brother are going to have birthdays.

oh yea oh yea. Eveline's birthday is coming in 2 days and we're going to trick her out. it will be seriously fun! ;)

last week is the most relaxing school week yet the saddest week (for some students) ever.

we got only one test on last week which surprised me a lot, and many teachers didn't come to teach us last week, I don't know why, but I'm pretty happy for it. I hope it will last long.

yes, UPH students went back to Jakarta on last Saturday and many students (read: juniors) cried for them. they were too much. the UPH students are not exactly famous actors and they're not going to die (since they were just going to take off to Jakarta), so please, don't act too much. it annoyed me a lot. you might be sad, but not continuously. it seriously annoyed me. =_________=

oh yea, happy Halloween for all humans, evils and angels in the whole world, hell, and heaven. ;)

seriously can't wait for Christmas. the most fun and peaceful holiday on earth!

these days, I'm reading the Holy Bible. yes, nobody's going to believe me, but trust me, I try to read them. I know that I'm not reading full parts of it, but at least I try. ;)

have a nice day, everyone.

all go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. - Ecclesiastes 3:20

and tadaaaaa! I'M TAKING THE SCHOLARSHIP! :D

ha, no, just kidding. so, this is my final decision, I'm not going to take the scholarship. yes, poor me. :(

I know I really want to, but yea, since I think about the disadvantages of taking this scholarship, I say no.

this is my decision, and I'm happy enough to take it.

AND YES, there's a surprising thing happens today. Eveline's Dad, was actually my Mom's best friend in middle school. it happens to their daughters now. HAHA

oh, yea! got to tell you something. I've been listening to Michael Buble's Everything since yesterday and again, I fell in love with this man.

have been trying to upload the video, but it failed. :\

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPUJIbXN0WY

you're the falling the star

you're the getaway car

you're the line in the sand

when I go too far

you're the swimming pool

on an August day

and you're the perfect thing to say

and you play it coy

but it's kinda cute

oh, when you smile at me

you know exactly what you do

baby don't pretend

that you don't know it's true

cause you can see it

when I look at you

and in this crazy life

and through these crazy times

it's you, it's you

you make me sing

you're every line

you're every word

you're everything

Everything - Michael Buble

it's Sunday, October 24, 2010.

nothing special happens today.

hm, okay, it remembers me of the deadline which is given by the MOE. it's October 27.

and me? yes, I'm still in doubt.

well, firstly, if I took the scholarship, I wouldn't get the High School graduation certificate, which is needed by me because I'm still Indonesian.

William, a friend who went to Singapore after Secondary graduation told me yesterday that studying in Singapore is so much fun (while studying in my current school is not fun at all). then, he suggested me to take the scholarship because nobody would be as lucky as I am. I still don't know why he put 'lucky' in his words. T_____________T

well, okay, I'm lucky as well.

secondly, it would be great to get out from my current school, but still, I don't want to lose my friends. it's going to be hard for me to adapt the situation in Singapore. seriously, I'm not an quick-adapted person.

thirdly, okay, we know that teachers and subjects in my current school are sucks, but okay, I could choose subjects I want there. okay, it's going to be interesting because if I could choose subjects I want, I WOULD BE FREE FROM SOCIAL STUDIES. well, that's the point.

everybody should make their own choice, shouldn't they? ;)

I've never been wanting for something damn much, and now, I want this thing, badly.

A PHONE.

well, I've got one, but I fall in love with this self phone lately.

it's Xperia X10 mini pro.

actually I want the regular Xperia X10, but since I saw the price, well, okay, I would rather buy a new laptop rather than to buy the regular X10.

then when I know that there's a mini version of X10 pro, I fall in love with it.

the design is cute, touchscreen, and it uses Android which surprises me at first.

my Dad's positive about this phone and he promises me to buy me at the end of December, which is still a long way to go. it doesn't matter if my Dad couldn't get any of it, but at least buy me the Xperia X10 mini. it doesn't have any QWERTY keyboard at all, but the design and specification are still the same. please do not break any promises again, Dad.

Xperia X10 mini

Xperia X10 mini pro

kinda cute, right? I WANT ONE!

hey!

well, I got another letter from the Ministry of Education in Singapore, and it told me that I passed the scholarship, but I didn't get the full scholarship. so, if I'm keen to take this scholarship, I would have to pay for the hostels, transportation, or miscellaneous fees. they called it: "MERIT AWARDS".

surprisingly, Dad let me to choose whether I want to take the scholarship. well, it makes me confused, and the deadline is October 27.

A beautiful chance for me to get out from my current school.

I hate that school, damn much!

and yeaaaaaaaaa. I love my background wallpaper on my laptop. pretty good!

My room's wall would be awesome, if they painted this on it.

since I love purple, this fits me a lot.

going to download more backgrounds from Microsoft. aw, going to use this background for the whole month until it gets old.

now I know what 'betrayal' means. oh, thanks to my friend to teach me about it.

betrayal means backstabbing. yea, people always think that 'betrayal' is just like when you have believed in someone or something then you just leave it. hm, okay. but I don't that agree with that opinion.

what I think about betrayal is that, hm okay, you may think that way but there are things that are missing, with 'unacceptable reasons'. well, okay, and you DO NOT think about others. you think about yourself individually and you DO NOT think about people around you. 'you gain profits from that betrayal' and that's why you betray someone who has believed in you. and of course, you break their hearts.


another thing is that betrayal begins with a TRUST. then you just break it for your own goodness.

okay, this blog post doesn't offend anyone. :)

ha! I've got to tell you something about my midterm tests. I've just got one remedial so far, it's for Chemistry. yes, another reason to tell my Dad that I can never join into Chemistry Technique major in university. ah, great news! :)


going to get a life. bye!

another unimportant post. yea, talking about the best duo in my life so far.

I guess everyone knows what Savage Garden is. I grew up on their songs, and I still love that duo until today.

one question remains on my mind: WHY DID THEY SPLIT? :(

I'm pretty sure that they would be so popular (at least for me) if they didn't split. it's hard to find australian-boy bands these days though. :l

I don't really care about the news telling that Darren Hayes is a gay, it doesn't really matter to me, since his voice is amazing and I was amazed. I hope they could gather as Savage Garden again. 0:)

I keep listening to country, pop, jazz, and classical musics these days, and I'm sooooooo melancholic.

going back to the normal life tomorrow.

I wanna stand with you on a mountain, I wanna bathe with you in the sea,

I wanna lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me.

A thousand angels dance around you, I'm complete now that I have found you.

yea, I know these days, my friends are promoting their blogs on Twitter.

but, I should think twice before I do that, I don't know why.

going to promote some of my friends' blogs here:

Stefany

Cindy

David

Meidy

Merlinda

ha! today is Friday, and today is HOLIDAY.

one is better than nothing.

I spent 5 hours taking a nap.

I spent hours reading novels, hearing Beethoven, Mozart, Bach. <3

my friends came to my house yesterday, after played badminton and ate ice-creams. so they found PS 1 in my room, and got to play with it for the whole noon. they bought the PS CD too, it's called Chocoboo or whatever.

then, my brother saw it, he plays and starts to love it, and I'm pretty sure that he's going to play with it for the whole night. PEACE IS GONE! :(

oh yea, got to tell y'all something. I got 50 for Chemistry. another reason for me to tell my Dad that I'm not going to Chemistry Technique major when I'm in university.

TAKE A DEEP BREATH.

going to study hard on the next semester. :P

so, we've got the midterm tests for a week long, and as usual, I have ZERO PASSION to study.

when I got the Chemistry exercise score, I got 62.5, then I got only 42.9 for Biology exercise.

it hits me. my scores are extremely decreasing. those are my worst score since I got into that school.

probably, I have to push myself to study hard for the midtests. well, it's just that I don't wanna make my parents sad. and I don't want the teachers keep asking me about the reasons why my scores are decreasing.

but, my laziness beats everything.

there are Chemistry and Civil tests tomorrow, it's 12 o'clock, and I haven't studied anything.

since yesterday, I bought Jeffery Deaver's "A Maiden's Grave", how could I study?

why did I buy this book?

yes, I don't wanna regret anymore, since I brought money to the bookstores.

2 months ago, when I was in Bogor, I wanted to buy another Jeffery Deaver's book, entitled "The Vanished Man", but I didn't bring money, so I didn't bought it either. I bought "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult and "After the Funeral" by Agatha Christie. I regret that soooo much since Pontianak's bookstore doesn't have that book. fml!

I want this book, badly.

see! I keep talking about novels. I should have studied. :(

seems that I don't get the energy and passion for studying. oh, God. I need them!

uhkaaaayyy!

wish me lucks for those tests! :(

so, these days I got MANY TESTS, they're about 5 tests on this week, and I'm dying.

because of those tests and my laziness, I get a new 'beautiful' habit : no studying at home.

I keep studying on the test days at school and I guess that's a new bad habit of mine. bz!

and surprisingly, it works a lot!

I can do the test constantly well. I guess I'll continue my 'new' habit until bad things happen.

so, for the scholarship, ZERO HOPE!

today is almost the end of the September, but I get ZERO information about my passing. :((

I've never hoped too much about something, and when I came to hope to this scholarship, I failed. guess I learn something from this. :(

then, I would continue my life, my shit and stupid life. I hope I can start a new brand life in Singapore, but I failed. bz.

school is the only one reason why I keep saying 'F*CK MY LIFE!'.

I do appreaciate music so much, so this is a list about musicians who will live forever in everybody's heart. :)

1. Michael Jackson

2. Elvis Presley

3. John Mayer

4. Bon Jovi

5. Michael Learns To Rock

6. John Travolta

7. Mariah Carey

8. Madonna

9. Celine Dion

10. Westlife

I grew up with their songs.

and there are more than 10 musicians who will last in everybody's heart.

yes, I can't post all of them here. :P

so, enjoy! :)

well, today is Handy's birthday.

we did the party, very weellllll! \m/

THE PARTY ROCKSSSS!

we gave him birthday cake, and punched him with flour. it was totally fun.

but there're two things that disturb my mind, and feeling too.

1. we didn't clean up the floor which was soooo dirty because of the flour and the cake we had been playing with.

2. we missed someone, Randy. yes, he actually wanted to join the party, but we just forgot about him. and that's what I feel guilty about.

what I've been thinking about is I'm not totally in fault.

1. we've told him that the party was held in the end of the school.

2. we're in hurry, because my friends are going to the course.

3. he didn't see us, working with it. that's one of his behaviours I don't like. he didn't care with the surroundings.

4. he's immature. he hates us because of just this simple problem. well, I know it hurts a lot - not telling him that the party has started - but, please, you could join directly when you saw the party. that's not a problem for us.

5. it's just not that we forgot, it's just YOU who didn't see everything we did. we're ready for the party. we don't have time to wait anymore. oh, please.

well, I got other reasons why I'm in fault.

1. well, okay, the fact, I forgot him.

2. I didn't say sorry to him, directly, I wanted to, but I was too scared that you've hated me already. yes, I'M CHICKEN.

3. damn, hell, yeah. I forgot him, again. I know that he supposed to be there, on the party, laughed with us.

4. and again, I forgot him. :(

I hate feeling this way, guilty, there's something in my heart, and I wanna burst it out.

and yeah, WE DIDN'T CLEAN UP THE FLOOR!

I'm afraid that the teachers are going to be mad on us, and they would think that we're bad-students.

and in the end, I'm going to hate that school more and more.

so, I guess, I need the scholarship. :l

oh, God, once again, if you think that I'm ready for this scholarship - and I hope You think so -, please lemme go. I'm so ouutttt of this place. :(

so, it was fun, but not that fun.

I hate feeling this way! :(

we played with 'Omegle' these days.
what I meant from 'we' is me and my friends.

it was started when we were in Cindy's house for partying. then, I slept over in her house with Eveline.

so, we tricked many people.
mostly people on Omegle are just searching for love, etc. and I hate them. stupid!

when I went home, I just wanted to try to trick other people I might chat with.
and, you know what I got?
an inspiring story.

it came from someone who lives in Belgium. he's 25 and engaged.
he told me everything about his life. it's too personal, so I can't type it here. :)
at first, I was shocked, because we just met for like minutes and he just told me everything about his life, including his love-life stories which are inspiring. he's honestly honest. a man who we can barely meet these days, since all boys are jerks.

he's funny, seriously. he could make me laugh all the time.

I was hoping for an older brother since I was in Secondary, and I thought I got one. :)
he told me what I should do for future, what major I should choose later, and so on. he acted like a true brother for me.

probably I don't appreciate what God has given to me. I have to face the fact, I don't have any older brother. but I hope that I got one. :l

in the end, we exchanged email addresses. I didn't give my truly email address, because I've been lying since the first time we chatted. and if in case I know that he's such a good guy, I probably won't lie. :(

God, please forgive me for what I've done. :(

WHAT THE HEEELLLLL!
I HATE HIGH SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING WHICH IS RELATED TO SCHOOL.

I got 3 tests and a homework.
ARGGGHHHH!

I might kill myself today, seriously.
we go home at 4, and we still need to study for the tests.
WHAT THE F***!

if I couldn't get the scholarship, I'm sure that I might kill myself.
I'm gonna hate this week, and other weeks at school.

I DON'T WANNA SPEND MY WHOLE LIFE AT SCHOOL!

haha!
you know what? I just start to hate the 'too' ambitious people. seriously, they're sucks.

they would just make a group of the geniuses and let the stupids make their own groups. it just ain't fair, ya know.

and don't ever ask them about lessons, they will just say : "I don't know." though actually they do really understand it. discrimination takes place.

they just won't let us to be cleverer than them. oh, pleasee.

'characters and attitude are more important than SCORES.' -mother

seriously, scores are temporary things, someday, people won't care with the scores you've got, they'll just care about the way you behave. oh, please.

well, I know that some of the geniuses are very kind to me, teaching me till I understand what they meant.

but, MOST of them are not that kind.

'your knowledge will be useful if you share it to others.' -CB teacher

I do appreciate for the ones who have been teaching me when I don't understand the lessons.
David, Indra, Ferlyn, Eveline, Cindy, etc. sometimes I just wanna shout out loud how happy I am having you as my best friends. :)

'knowledge is no guarantee of good behavior. being wise is more important than being genius. the wise ones must be genius, but the geniuses won't always be the wise ones. please, geniuses, be good.'

ha! I'm home.

I went home yesterday actually, 5 days at Bogor and Jakarta was so much fun, and I couldn't stop smiling for the whole time.

I met my cousins and went everywhere for the whole time.

and we got 2 dogs, which are 2 months old. a boy and a girl. THEY. ARE. CUTE.

we got to play with them for the whole noon.

we went to Botani Square too, and I ate J.Co. <3

the nicest holidays-in-school-time ever!

and yes, we did the tests.

they were difficult. hell ya. I'd prefer do the logarithm.

I skipped 4 days school, and I got 8 tests waiting for me. :((

fight! :D

I didn't hope too much for this time.

I hope that I could pass the test, so I could go back to Bogor. ha! skipping the school is fun, ya know.

so, Eveline passed the selection! I was sooooooo happy for her!
we'll go to Jakarta. :)

I'll go to Jakarta (then Bogor) on Friday, and Eveline on Saturday.
SUPERB!

God, please, if you think that I'm ready, let me do this selection consistently well. I just want to go out from that creepy school and start a new brand beautiful life.

wish us lucks! :)

I got many surprising events in my life, and I thought that I was lucky to get them.

and last night, I got one.

so, Eveline and I joined a scholarship event on the internet, and it was just for fun.

we thought that we wouldn't pass the test, and I thought the one who's going to pass the test was Eveline, because her scores are totally better than mine.

so, last night, someone came to my house, delivering the mail.

and hell yeah! I was excited a lot, I couldn't stop smiling, and my Dad just called my aunts in Bogor, because the mail said that the selection test will be held in Jakarta, so I'll go to Jakarta and Bogor this Friday with my Dad. :)

then, I asked Eveline if she got one too, but she didn't, or maybe haven't got one.

I hope that she could pass it too, so we could go there together.

and finally, I could a week holiday from school because of this.

but I hate to say that I'm going to skip some tests, such as Math and Sociology.

well, next week is going to be a busy week, I hope I got remission from the school, but I surely won't get any.

and Dad, thanks for reminding me to thank God for all things happened in my life. :')

beside this, I've ever got the unexpected thing that happened in my life.

I went to Jakarta and joined the selection test of The International Mathematics and Science Olympiade.

and I was in the 59th rank from 61 students.

well, I thought it's just lucky. HAHA.

so, good luck for me! woooo! :D

I think I'm a light xenophobia.

it's a little bit hard for me to accept new people in my life, and I'm just afraid of getting new friends. oh, my..

so, on next Monday, my class will get a new student who comes from my primary school.

and, ha! I don't really like her and she hates me too. it sucks knowing that she's going to be IN my class, like, oh my God, school has been very frustrating, and she will come in. I'm going to kill myself, soon. ha!

I have many reasons why I hate her :

okay, first, she's childish. I know physically she's more beautiful and bigger than me, but haha! just be mature, girl. I don't say that I'm mature enough, okay?

second. oh, please. you hate my friend just because my friend is your boy's best friend? nice one.

third. well, she discriminates people. well, that's why you can't get a true friend. oh, well. I'm not wise enough to lecture ya! but, you keep thinking that Malays are bad. oh, please. we're all humans. why should you discriminate each other?

fourth. you love boys, don't ya? I meant, you love ALL boys. and yah. you're hypocrite. seriously, oh. my. God.

fifth. you hate me. well, I can't just hate you because you hate me, but based on all reasons I have, I might hate you back. I don't hate you directly, but I don't like the way you behave. :)

well, I know that I'm not that perfect, I know I might have more sins than you have, but I'll try to change myself, and I'll try to accept you for who you are, and I hope you can do the same. :)

so, let's be friends!

I got many new friends this year, especially at school.
we got -- if I'm not mistaken -- 13 new friends which come from various schools.

and some of them are too clever a.k.a genius.

I'm going to tell you about one of them.
his initial name is R.
he's genius. totally. he could do maths and science more than anyone could do. and I'm pretty sure that he will get into the TOP 3.

one of my friends, who are very clever (but not genius) with initial Y and always get into TOP 3, seems so jealous with R.

what I think is Y is not that clever.
she thought that R is too arrogant because he always answers the questions perfectly and Y is in TOP 3 because she has too many courses which help her. seriously, is it important to get into TOP 3?

what I think is, scores aren't important. the most important thing is attitude.

I know that probably R is arrogant, but we've just known him for these 3 weeks, and I've never seen you talked to him. so, how could you conclude that he's arrogant?

we just can't conclude that fast.

and I joined the badminton club today and R and Y were there.
R is really good at playing badminton, but Y isn't. (that's what I thought though I'm not an expert :D)
so, after playing, R went home first and we went to a restaurant to get some foods.
and Y just talked about how arrogant was R when he played badminton to my other friends.

seriously, I thought he's not arrogant. it's just that he's good at playing badminton.

what I think is : "Y is jealous because R is much better than her."
seriously, it's ridiculous.
you hate someone because they're just cleverer than you.

please, be mature, Y.
I know that I'm not that mature, but please, don't hate R because he's just cleverer than you.
accept the truth.