I don't know why I love putting the question marks behind my titles these days.

My aunt, her friends, and my cousin were here last Friday. I was so excited that I finally got the chance to watch Secondhand Serenade concert. Thank you so much for my lovely cousin. :)

So, again, repeatedly, I was asked by my aunt: "What major are you going to take after school?"

STRIKE. I replied: "Eeeehh.. I. Don't. Know."

My cousin, who is a year younger than me, told us: "I'm going to take the Architecture major after I finished my school."

Damn, why is it so easy for him to make a decision?

I was thinking to have Biology department. I guess it's going to be fun to learn about everything in nature. Well, looking at my Biology scores, I think I need to let the dream go.

My Dad, coercively, pushes me to go to Chemistry Technique major. Compared to my Biology scores, my Chemistry is worse.

So, what to take?

Then, I took some temperament and personality tests, yes, to determine my suitable future job.

The Phlegmatic Melancholy

The Phlegmatic Melancholy is a study in contrasts; usually acceptant of others, the Melancholy secondary type will cause them to be more critical and analytical.  In this case, where a Melancholy might be blatantly critical of someone, a Phlegmatic Melancholy may “hint” or “snipe” or in some other way let you know of their displeasure at your behavior.  This type is the most organized of the Phlegmatics due to the Melancholies organized nature.  This temperament works well in jobs requiring organization and an ability to be acceptant.

The Phlegmatic Melancholy make an excellent administrator; combining the ability to look at and solve problems with an ability to put up with schedules and bureaucracy.  They need a partner or spouse who understands their need to criticize things and people from time to time.

THOSE SENTENCES DESCRIBE ME THE BEST. But...

Administrator? Me? I doubt that.

My Dad has ever suggested me to go into Medical School, even he eventually knew my answer would be a BIG NO.

Everybody says: "Follow your heart!"

But my heart actually says nothing. So, who to follow?

My lucky numbers are 3 and 7.

Well, today is officially 37 days before my birthday. BIRTH. DAY.

I've got a loooooooonnnnnnnggggg list of things I want for my birthday.

1. ABC Murders - Agatha Christie

I've been trying to find this book, but I couldn't find one. I want the original one. No subtitles.

2. Avril Lavigne or Sara Bareilles tickets.

THEY ARE COMING TO INDONESIA THIS MAY! I really wish something punches my parents' heads, then they will allow me to go.

3. The complete set of Robert Ludlum - Jason Bourne books. I can't wait for the next series of the film!

4. MY MILK TOOF BOOK! It's going to be soooo adorable <3

5. A new string thin guitar.

6. Mini unique fridge to be put in my room, so I don't need to go out from my room to find foods or drinks.

7. A peaceful life. :)

Seriously, those are just a small part of my list.

So, I've just watched this "Invictus" movie. Okay, don't blame me for my lameness.

Comment? I. WAS. TOTALLY. IMPRESSED.

WORDS.

Invictus - William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,

Black as the pit from pole to pole,

I thank whatever gods may be,

For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,

I have not winced nor cried aloud.

Under my bludgeonings of chance,

My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years

Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged the punishments the scroll,

I am the master of my fate,

I am the captain of my soul.

One last sentence that I will always remember from Matt Damon a.k.a Francois Pienaar:
"How could he (read: Nelson Mandela) wholeheartedly forgive people who have jailed him for almost 30 years in that very small room?"

That's not exactly what he said. But I guess I got the point. :P

P.S.: Matt Damon looked adorable. <3

When I first heard about the song "Love Song for No One" by John Mayer, I had a feeling that this song must be unique and it had something beneath it.

I'm right.

I tried to search on YouTube, and in one of his concerts, he told the history of this song; how the relationships between men and women go.

Check this out!

So, this is what he says. Uh, sorry, I'm not good at doing this. I should tell you all, this is a great video to practice your listening. Phew.

Note: This might be the most colorful post I've ever made in my life.

"So, I was thinking about relationships and as it pertains to songs about relationships. And I was trying to think, well it occurred to me that the key, I figured out the key to a relationship and how to make it work. Check it out, this is a tip from the Uncle John."

"When you first meet somebody, you find out they like you, first of all, friend of a friend of theirs says, he or she really really likes you, and it kills you, floors you, sends you to the ground. You got to pick yourself up off the ground, then you get their phone number and you call them up, right? And you say: 'Yeah, that's a great phone conversation, can I see you some time?' and then they say this, they say: 'I'd like that.' 'I'd like that' makes your phone's on the floor again, your heart's about to stop, because of 'I'd like that.' Nothing feels better than 'I'd like that.'"

"So now, your blood pressures' going, you're six feet off the ground, you can't sleep because of 'I'd like that.' So then you hang out for a while, and you call and you talk on the phone all the time, and then you drop the bomb, what feels like bomb, you say: 'You know what? I've been thinking about you a lot.' And she goes: 'AAAAHHHHHH!!' And you go: 'What happened?' And she goes: 'I'm sorry, I just I just I just, that's, I've been thinking about you too.' BAMM! Higher into the sky. But now 'I'd like that'? Done. Now you're up to 'I'm thinking about you.'"

"Then, however number of months pass, it makes you feel comfortable saying it, you say: 'I gotta tell you something.' They go: 'What?', you go: 'I'm in love with you.' And nothing in the world sounds better than 'I'm in love with you.' And then maybe she starts crying, or maybe she goes: 'Heeekkk'. And all the sudden you're like: 'I'm in.' But now, what doesn't work?; 'I'd like that.' and 'I've been thinking about you.' Now we're at 'I'm in love with you.' Then maybe someday it'll move up to 'I love you.' Fast froward, now you're like 'I love you a lot, I love you more than anything in life.'"

"Now, 'I love you' doesn't work. It's a threshold that keeps moving up. Fast forward, like six months, six weeks, whatever the case may be, now you're on like, 'I want to marry you. I want to impregnate you with my love. I wanna, I wanna just send my love to you. Damn it, words don't work anymore.' And then, you say this line, and you know, you know you've used this line before: 'I just I wish they'd put a new word in the dictionary bigger than love because love just doesn't describe what I feel.' And so now he or she starts asking, 'Do you love me?' And you start going: 'Of course I love you.' 'Well, say it!' And it becomes: 'Say it twice.' And it goes: 'Say it three times.'"

"And then you cross a really interesting point, where all the sudden it becomes: 'I hate you, I hate you.' And you go: 'Oh my God!! She hates me!!' And now it's like: 'I hate you more than anything.' And then it's like: 'We're over!!' And then they go: 'No, we're not.' And you go: 'Yes we are.'"

"Now the words completely do not work at all, you're left with nothing. You're throwing punches under water. You're done. You know what the moral of that story is, if there is one. Never, ever, ever, ever, underestimate the power of: 'I'd like that.'"

Seriously, I want you to have a concert in Indonesia.

"I'm so tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here."

I could have met you in a sandbox.

I could have passed you on a sidewalk.

Could I have missed my chance and watched you walk away?

John Mayer - Love Song for No One.

This song is spinning around my head for the last 3 hours.

Dear John Mayer,

Please stop making these songs that describe my life.

Well, just kidding. Don't you dare to stop making songs.

You are one of the greats.

Sincerely,

Your microphone-wannabe.

Oh, last one. I wanna share you something I got from www.owlcityblog.com

"Why is it - the faster you attempt to heal from something painful, the more frequently it tends to haunt you?" -Adam Young

Now I believe that you can describe your life through music; songs.