and tadaaaaa! I'M TAKING THE SCHOLARSHIP! :D

ha, no, just kidding. so, this is my final decision, I'm not going to take the scholarship. yes, poor me. :(

I know I really want to, but yea, since I think about the disadvantages of taking this scholarship, I say no.

this is my decision, and I'm happy enough to take it.

AND YES, there's a surprising thing happens today. Eveline's Dad, was actually my Mom's best friend in middle school. it happens to their daughters now. HAHA

oh, yea! got to tell you something. I've been listening to Michael Buble's Everything since yesterday and again, I fell in love with this man.

have been trying to upload the video, but it failed. :\

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPUJIbXN0WY

you're the falling the star

you're the getaway car

you're the line in the sand

when I go too far

you're the swimming pool

on an August day

and you're the perfect thing to say

and you play it coy

but it's kinda cute

oh, when you smile at me

you know exactly what you do

baby don't pretend

that you don't know it's true

cause you can see it

when I look at you

and in this crazy life

and through these crazy times

it's you, it's you

you make me sing

you're every line

you're every word

you're everything

Everything - Michael Buble

it's Sunday, October 24, 2010.

nothing special happens today.

hm, okay, it remembers me of the deadline which is given by the MOE. it's October 27.

and me? yes, I'm still in doubt.

well, firstly, if I took the scholarship, I wouldn't get the High School graduation certificate, which is needed by me because I'm still Indonesian.

William, a friend who went to Singapore after Secondary graduation told me yesterday that studying in Singapore is so much fun (while studying in my current school is not fun at all). then, he suggested me to take the scholarship because nobody would be as lucky as I am. I still don't know why he put 'lucky' in his words. T_____________T

well, okay, I'm lucky as well.

secondly, it would be great to get out from my current school, but still, I don't want to lose my friends. it's going to be hard for me to adapt the situation in Singapore. seriously, I'm not an quick-adapted person.

thirdly, okay, we know that teachers and subjects in my current school are sucks, but okay, I could choose subjects I want there. okay, it's going to be interesting because if I could choose subjects I want, I WOULD BE FREE FROM SOCIAL STUDIES. well, that's the point.

everybody should make their own choice, shouldn't they? ;)

I've never been wanting for something damn much, and now, I want this thing, badly.

A PHONE.

well, I've got one, but I fall in love with this self phone lately.

it's Xperia X10 mini pro.

actually I want the regular Xperia X10, but since I saw the price, well, okay, I would rather buy a new laptop rather than to buy the regular X10.

then when I know that there's a mini version of X10 pro, I fall in love with it.

the design is cute, touchscreen, and it uses Android which surprises me at first.

my Dad's positive about this phone and he promises me to buy me at the end of December, which is still a long way to go. it doesn't matter if my Dad couldn't get any of it, but at least buy me the Xperia X10 mini. it doesn't have any QWERTY keyboard at all, but the design and specification are still the same. please do not break any promises again, Dad.

Xperia X10 mini

Xperia X10 mini pro

kinda cute, right? I WANT ONE!

hey!

well, I got another letter from the Ministry of Education in Singapore, and it told me that I passed the scholarship, but I didn't get the full scholarship. so, if I'm keen to take this scholarship, I would have to pay for the hostels, transportation, or miscellaneous fees. they called it: "MERIT AWARDS".

surprisingly, Dad let me to choose whether I want to take the scholarship. well, it makes me confused, and the deadline is October 27.

A beautiful chance for me to get out from my current school.

I hate that school, damn much!

and yeaaaaaaaaa. I love my background wallpaper on my laptop. pretty good!

My room's wall would be awesome, if they painted this on it.

since I love purple, this fits me a lot.

going to download more backgrounds from Microsoft. aw, going to use this background for the whole month until it gets old.

now I know what 'betrayal' means. oh, thanks to my friend to teach me about it.

betrayal means backstabbing. yea, people always think that 'betrayal' is just like when you have believed in someone or something then you just leave it. hm, okay. but I don't that agree with that opinion.

what I think about betrayal is that, hm okay, you may think that way but there are things that are missing, with 'unacceptable reasons'. well, okay, and you DO NOT think about others. you think about yourself individually and you DO NOT think about people around you. 'you gain profits from that betrayal' and that's why you betray someone who has believed in you. and of course, you break their hearts.


another thing is that betrayal begins with a TRUST. then you just break it for your own goodness.

okay, this blog post doesn't offend anyone. :)

ha! I've got to tell you something about my midterm tests. I've just got one remedial so far, it's for Chemistry. yes, another reason to tell my Dad that I can never join into Chemistry Technique major in university. ah, great news! :)


going to get a life. bye!

another unimportant post. yea, talking about the best duo in my life so far.

I guess everyone knows what Savage Garden is. I grew up on their songs, and I still love that duo until today.

one question remains on my mind: WHY DID THEY SPLIT? :(

I'm pretty sure that they would be so popular (at least for me) if they didn't split. it's hard to find australian-boy bands these days though. :l

I don't really care about the news telling that Darren Hayes is a gay, it doesn't really matter to me, since his voice is amazing and I was amazed. I hope they could gather as Savage Garden again. 0:)

I keep listening to country, pop, jazz, and classical musics these days, and I'm sooooooo melancholic.

going back to the normal life tomorrow.

I wanna stand with you on a mountain, I wanna bathe with you in the sea,

I wanna lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me.

A thousand angels dance around you, I'm complete now that I have found you.

yea, I know these days, my friends are promoting their blogs on Twitter.

but, I should think twice before I do that, I don't know why.

going to promote some of my friends' blogs here:

Stefany

Cindy

David

Meidy

Merlinda

ha! today is Friday, and today is HOLIDAY.

one is better than nothing.

I spent 5 hours taking a nap.

I spent hours reading novels, hearing Beethoven, Mozart, Bach. <3

my friends came to my house yesterday, after played badminton and ate ice-creams. so they found PS 1 in my room, and got to play with it for the whole noon. they bought the PS CD too, it's called Chocoboo or whatever.

then, my brother saw it, he plays and starts to love it, and I'm pretty sure that he's going to play with it for the whole night. PEACE IS GONE! :(

oh yea, got to tell y'all something. I got 50 for Chemistry. another reason for me to tell my Dad that I'm not going to Chemistry Technique major when I'm in university.

TAKE A DEEP BREATH.

going to study hard on the next semester. :P

so, we've got the midterm tests for a week long, and as usual, I have ZERO PASSION to study.

when I got the Chemistry exercise score, I got 62.5, then I got only 42.9 for Biology exercise.

it hits me. my scores are extremely decreasing. those are my worst score since I got into that school.

probably, I have to push myself to study hard for the midtests. well, it's just that I don't wanna make my parents sad. and I don't want the teachers keep asking me about the reasons why my scores are decreasing.

but, my laziness beats everything.

there are Chemistry and Civil tests tomorrow, it's 12 o'clock, and I haven't studied anything.

since yesterday, I bought Jeffery Deaver's "A Maiden's Grave", how could I study?

why did I buy this book?

yes, I don't wanna regret anymore, since I brought money to the bookstores.

2 months ago, when I was in Bogor, I wanted to buy another Jeffery Deaver's book, entitled "The Vanished Man", but I didn't bring money, so I didn't bought it either. I bought "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult and "After the Funeral" by Agatha Christie. I regret that soooo much since Pontianak's bookstore doesn't have that book. fml!

I want this book, badly.

see! I keep talking about novels. I should have studied. :(

seems that I don't get the energy and passion for studying. oh, God. I need them!

uhkaaaayyy!

wish me lucks for those tests! :(